1.10am

The time now is 1.11am. im still wide awake,can't sleep. Too many things to think about !

i really don't understand why the fuck would i care about these two most certainly ugly most jerky hateful people. Its the EX and the NEMESIS.

Ive never ever thought in my entire life that the NEMESIS and the EX could be a couple. i don't have any feelings toward the EX. I think his ugly and trying so hard to change his appearance and the attitude. I know he has change alot lately but whatever laa. For the NEMESIS, ohh god ive already fucking hate her ! she just digusts me so much with her face,her attitude and ughh say no more please.Have i mention she's DESPERATE ! [haha] I fucking hate her till the end okayhh? The thing about them TOGETHER [feeling really sick writing this] just keeps popping in MOI's mind. I don't know whether i have the strength to face this when school opens. Friends and curious people might ask me whether "are u okay with this?" or "Ko tak jealous ke yg die cpl ngn ex ko?" or maybe something like "sape suruh ko break ngn die? kan dah dpt kt minah bodo tue!". I dont have feelings toward him, HONEST ! annd yes i do hate her,every single day of my life i will hate her , it just feels reallyreally weird. Them being TOGETHER, [UGGHH ] . i do have a boyfriend that i truly love and care right now. So far we're doing O.K ;) and im glad that we're together.

I really wish and hope this miserable,weird,hateful disease will go away ! I know i can do this.
Im not jealous or feeling guilty about the EX. What i do know is i fucking hate her,thats all ;) and hoping to be more stronger for next year :DD. Now is the time to hit the books and be a workaholic . This disease is fucking stupid !

Pegi mati la mamat hodoh and minah desperate [hehe ;)]

SPM AWAITS ME !

AND PLEASE,PLEEEASE MAKE THIS DISEASE GO AWAY ! I really don't have time for this babehs