Arghhh .

I totally hate this, this feeling. . .

I hate the feeling scared,terrified. Everyone hates it. So life have been good but not great. JPJ test is so effin' near. Im terrified. Im scared if I FAIL. The 'F' word has been ticking in my heart since I passed my pre-test. Tick tick like a BOMB. Oh god, everytime I kept thinking bout it makes me weak and scared if I mess it up. Its like SPM again , only you'll get the result the same day you did your test. Ive heard my friends, mostly my friends screwed up their first JPJ test but in the end they did pass. How lucky they are. I wish I could be like one of my friends.

I totally admired her. The way she motivates herself. She has these confidences that I wish I could have. But arghh Im so scared. I just want to wrap myself with my blanket on my comfy bed and read my novel. Thats the most delighting thing that I could think of. Ughh whtevr . i feel like shooting myself. I haven't watch Clash of The Titans. Ive been busy with driving classes and working at home as a nanny. Haha yeah Im pretty much pathetic. Cousins are busy. Friends are working, sisters have college and schools. Yes Im pathetic. But I promise myself I'll be the first to watch Ironman 2. *yipeee* . Ive been doing chores around the house. I pratically cook sometimes for my family especially during lunch and try to organize my closet. How I wish i could have an assistant or a maid to clear & organize my closet (:



So anyway today is Nizam's birthday. His been apaininthehead lately. CHEERS to Nizam for getting elderly old today, haha .




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