RESTLESS me .

Slept at 0300 am last night. Whats up with me? I know I did blame 3in1 nescafe but its like every single day Im sleeping like really late. I seldom sleep in the afternoon, I tried doing even sweatytiringbrutal chores lately and yet I can never go to sleep. Im not tired or sleepy.

What the heck is wrong with me? Ive been asking myself lately . Im so effin' curious.


I do know JPJ test is near, very near. Maybe its my mind. Its been minding on itself alot these days.Its April now. Soon every one of my friends will be going off to college . Some of them are working, unlike me. I keep asking myself, is this kind of issue sindrom has been bothering me nowadays? It seems to be yes. I do feel scared about entering any college or university . IPTA will be revealing their results. Is whether you're in or you're out. Its either luck or no luck. Its the fact what mostly muslims would say ada rezeki or takda rezeki. It also revolve with our SPM result. No need regrets or cries. Theres no point to it anymore.

As much I really don't like thinking about it, I have to think about it. Its my future, my darn future. Thats life I guess. No matter how hard it turns out to be, in the end you have to face it. Through thick and thick. 2 days ago , Ive been imagining myself driving a manual kancil or se-tu-pid viva. Yeahh imagination (: ! Im afraid if I tend to forget all those driving steps. And arhh jalanraya , hate it. Signals, the changing gear thingy . I hate it when I can't perform as good as I performed when my dear teacher is beside me. Its disappointing really, sometimes I do feel like crying. I promise myself I wont cry. But I do feel my face going red and hot plastered with sweat when I did wrong .

So yesterday went to school with Nizam did the lcci thingy. I have to do the freakin' procedure by myself since it was too late. URGHH . Oh have I mention I fell on the school hill and ripped my favourite jeans. Yes I do regret standing there. Haha hate that hill .

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