I just want to run from everything, just like running like theres no tomorrow. Boundless. I just miss the feeling when you just feel so free, so full of life, so I-DONT-CARE-ABOUT-ANYTHING-ELSE-IN-THE-WORLD. I do sometimes miss being a kid. How lovely it was being a kid back then.
As much I love to run , I can't run as I wish I can due to my asthma. *sigh. Its sad really . Last night, there I was , lying on my bed . I had my face burried in my pillow and my mp3 turned on to full volume. Listening to some of my current moodswing songs , Natalie Merchant - my skin and Jan Ardenn I'll try. Yes I do admit the songs are kinda mellow with a sad kind of tune. But its soothing for me. And it truly shows how I totally feel right now. Basically Im scared . Ive never been this scared before. Its like sindrom . Godd , Ihateitsomuch !
I do notice my blog has been really sad lately. I just want to get OVER all these shit feelings and totally feel happy bout living my life. I guess it takes time . Im trying myself really hard these days to actually feel okay. Alleviation is actually an inspiration. I mean, I can assuage my feelings by just . . well , by inspiration actually . And not forgetting some important people in my life .
Top 5 GOALS at the Moment
5. Organize my clothes in the closet clearly- DONE
4. Buy new colourful pastel shawls- DONE
3. Pray to get into any IPTA - APPLYING it .
2. Apply solat tahajjud more these days .
And the number one goal at the moment ?
1. Pass my JPJ test. Urghh hate this feeling .
Three done, two to go .
Have I mention this story where my sister and I went out to get her car wash at Esso. We were like waiting for her car until came this lady with her Jeep. She looks old but still thinks she has the youth in her by wearing a sleeveless top. DAMN her armpit was like a minibush. And to top it all in , a broad neck line of the tanktop she wore. whttheeff. Trying to expose some crinkle cleavege. Eww you're not getting any younger you dirtbag . Well back to story, one of the wheels puncture so she asked the boys for their help who were BUSY trying to wash customer's cars that time.
My sister lend them the tool that they wanted. It took like 30 minutes. It was hard for the boys to settle the effin old lady's problem. And she didnt even try to help. She just sat that and wait talking on the phone god who knows . The sad thing is , she didnt even gave them some tips for helping her darn car's problem. She did gave one of the boys her half ate Zip cadbury bar then drove off with her fucking Jeep. She didn't even tried to thank my sister and I for waiting for our tool to get back in the boot and took 30 minutes of our time. She knew it was our tool . What kind of person is that? Its not that I want like a mega-THANK for using our tool and for taking our time but atleast try to be a nice person for once by giving them tips or treat them money for cool beverages. They did help you in the blazing hot weather. Arghh curse that old lady.
-FIN-
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